A Steady Soul

One September morning almost twenty-eight years ago, my left hand started feeling a little funny, like I’d slept on it wrong. I shook and flexed it while I continued packing my husband’s lunch for the day.

After a while, I realized that numbish feeling was spreading up my arm.

Then it started in both feet, spreading upward.

Within three hours, my left arm, both legs, and my lower torso were numb. I couldn’t walk on my own. I developed a laundry list of other symptoms.

After multitudes of tests and blood draws over eight days in the hospital, I was diagnosed with transverse myelitis.

Transverse Myelitis occurs when a virus hits the spine, triggering an autoimmune response which causes the body to attack the myelin sheath around the nerves as well as the virus. Symptoms vary depending on where along the spine the attack occurred. If the lower spine is affected, one might experience numbness and tingling. An attack high on the spine, however, could result in losing the ability to breathe, requiring a ventilator.

My spine was affected in the thoracic region. With much prayer and months of physical therapy, I progressed from a wheelchair to a walker to a cane to wobbly steps on my own.

I still have numb areas and odd sensations. But my biggest problem is balance.

I can walk in a straight line on level ground without problems most days. But uneven ground, slopes, and stairs are a challenge.

Sometimes people will offer me an arm for support, which helps. But what helps the most is a handrail, something solid and unmovable.

Oddly, though, I have the most trouble with balance when standing still.

Proprioreception has to do with knowing where your body is in space. Some people might not know where their hands and feet are without looking at them. I don’t have that problem, but if I stand still for more than a few minutes I lose balance. Usually I’ll inch towards a chair or wall to touch as a reference point to reset my bearings.

I told you all of that to tell you this:

A few years ago when I read 2 Peter 2 in a new-to-me translation, the word “unsteady” jumped out at me because I well knew what being unsteady felt like.

Peter talks in this chapter about those with unsteady souls. Other translations say unstable, unestablished, unsettled. These souls are easily enticed by false teachers (verse 14).

How do false teachers entice these souls? 1 Peter speaks of the false prophets’ sensuality, lust, greed, passion, so they “entice by sensual passions” (verse 18). James 1:14 uses the same Greek word for “entice,” which carries the idea of baiting, alluring, deceiving, when it says, “But each person is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desire.” They “despise authority” (verse 10). “They promise them freedom, but they themselves are slaves of corruption” (verse 19). They “exploit you with false words” (verse 3). They’re blasphemous (verses 10-13).

Probably many of the people who fall away to false teachers are not saved in the first place, but weak or new believers are susceptible as well. A true Christian can’t lose his or her salvation, but a believer can get tangled in false doctrines to their own confusion as well as that of everyone in their sphere of influence. But even those of us who think we’re strong need to “take heed lest we fall.” (1 Corinthians 10:12).

How can we make sure we’re not unsteady or unstable spiritually?

By orienting ourselves with the solid, unchanging Word of God.

Rest on the Bible’s sure foundation. Earlier in his letter, Peter told his readers that God’s Word was more sure than even his experience watching Jesus’ transfiguration (2 Peter 1:16-19, KJV).

Know that Scripture comes from God. Peter assured that that “no prophecy of Scripture comes from someone’s own interpretation. For no prophecy was ever produced by the will of man, but men spoke from God as they were carried along by the Holy Spirit” (2 Peter 1:20-21).

Know God Through His Word. Peter said “His divine power has granted to us everything pertaining to life and godliness, through the true knowledge of Him who called us by His own glory and excellence,” which we learn about from “His precious and magnificent promises, so that by them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world on account of lust.” (1:3-4, NASB). Everything pertaining to life and godliness! The first time this verse impacted me, I was nearly bowled over. There may be many things we don’t comprehend about God, but He’s given us everything we need to live for Him through knowing Him through His Word.

Don’t twist the Scriptures as the unstable do. “There are some things in them that are hard to understand, which the ignorant and unstable twist to their own destruction, as they do the other Scriptures” (2 Peter 3:15-16). The unsteady twist (wrest in the KJV) the very thing which could stabilize them. We read it in context so we understand its meaning. We don’t wrangle it to make it say what we want it to say. We don’t adjust it to us: we adjust ourselves to it.

Be watchful. “Take care that you are not carried away with the error of lawless people and lose your own stability (2 Peter 3:17).

Keep growing “in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ” (3:18).

Listen to sound teaching. Contrast the characteristics Peter lists of false teachers in 2 Peter to what he says about godly shepherds in 1 Peter 5. Paul tells Timothy in 2 Timothy 4: “preach the word; be ready in season and out of season; reprove, rebuke, and exhort, with complete patience and teaching. For the time is coming when people will not endure sound teaching, but having itching ears they will accumulate for themselves teachers to suit their own passions, and will turn away from listening to the truth and wander off into myths.” We seek to feed our souls His truth rather than feeding our own desires.

Jesus said the one who hears his words and does them is like a man who built his house on a rock which was unshaken by winds and flood waters.

So we watch ourselves, that we’re not being led away of wrong desires. We read and listen to God’s Word as it’s written, in context, not trying to twist it. We listen to pastors and teachers who faithfully proclaim God’s Word. We we obey it. We get to know our Savior better and better and remind ourselves of His truth. and we keep growing spiritually. Doing all of these things might bring persecution, which Peter discusses often in both of his letters. But we can trust God to keep us and deliver us. Then we can say, “My steps have held to Your paths; my feet have not slipped” (Psalm 17:5).

Keep steady my steps according to your promise,
and let no iniquity get dominion over me (Psalm 119:133).

Revised from the archives.

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20 thoughts on “A Steady Soul

    • Thank you, Melissa. So many who have had this illness have constant pain or mobility or other issues. I’m thankful God gave me the ability to pretty much function as I needed.

  1. Such a good personal illustration — although I’m so sorry you had to experience it. I can’t imagine how terrifying that must have been as the symptoms were first appearing. It really brought to life the sensation of unsteadiness. Praying that each of us can aim for steadiness in our Christian walks.

  2. This post has been a blessing to me. I heard just recently from a Christian speaker who challenged the reader to read scripture and look for what it says about God. Rather than see how the reader benefits from this scripture, look to see what you can learn about God. Being in charismatic circles for such a long time, I’m having to weed through all sorts of things and it always comes back to ‘what does the Bible say?’

    • I think many of us have to transition our focus as we grow in the Lord and keep reading His Word. I think we all start out looking at it to meet our needs–which it does–rather than looking to learn more of God and worship Him.

  3. I’m sorry you had to cope with that, but it’s made for the perfect illustration here. We must continually keep ourselves steadied and oriented with Scripture. My own example is different but has given me the same vivid illustration of what it means to keep steady steps and “strengthen the weak knees” – as the arthritis damaged my knees, they were not only painful but would buckle unexpectedly, and I had to start using a cane to keep my balance because every single step felt to me like walking on thin ice. I wasn’t sure the ice would bear my weight and I could slip and slide without warning. That’s what it’s like to live without the firm foundation of God’s Word. Thanks for sharing! (Sorry I’m late again this week with my visit and comment!)

    • No worries–you’re never too late. 🙂 I am sorry for the arthritis in your knees. Mine have stared to buckle unexpectedly like that sometimes, but then they always seem to start working right again immediately. So I have wondered if it it arthritis.

  4. Barbara, I’m sorry you still have lingering issues from your bout of Transverse Myelitis. The whole ordeal sounds awful! That said, I appreciate the perspective you bring to the whole topic of unsteadiness and unsteady souls. Seems like careful Bible reading goes a long way toward growing in discernment and leaving unsteadiness behind.

  5. So sorry to hear of this health journey for you Barbara, but praise God for His goodness in the journey. Excellent words about being unsteady, and the exhortation to know scripture!

  6. It’s difficult when chronic health issues come our way Barbara, a I’m glad you have progressed somewhat from the first onset of symptoms.

    I like your analogy here, one I can relate to as well with osteoarthritis in both feet, flat, level surfaces are fine but any uneven or sloping ground I notice my balance becomes precarious & often use hubby’s hand as a support 😉
    Blessings, Jennifer

  7. WOW Praise the Lord you don’t need a ventilator. I love this post and can relate to so much of it although I have a different physical issue. I love all of your points about the Scriptures too. Thank you for this testimony and wise words.

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  9. Now I will think of Scripture as a handrail for my soul. My daily exercises are a reminder to me of the importance of maintaining balance—and what a shifty thing our own sense of balance can be…

  10. Oh my Barbara, what a scary experience. I’m happy your recovery is progressing. I love that you’ve interwoven this into your message with a poignant lesson.
    Thanks so much for sharing this with Sweet Tea & Friends this month.

  11. Wow, Barbara. I’m so sorry for you to have suffered in this way, but what a wonderful application you’ve created from it.

    Thanks so much for joining the Grace at Home party at Imparting Grace. I’m featuring you this week!

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