Rambling

I mentioned last week that I’d be scarce for a bit. I hadn’t meant for that to continue. I’m mainly catching up from last week’s busyness. Still have housework to catch up on; sudden cold weather has me scrambling to get my winter clothes out of boxes, washed, and ready to wear; I just had Jesse get my fall decorations down from the attic this morning, so I hope to at least change the spring arrangement out front for a fall one.

On a side note, I wonder why I have more winter clothes than spring/summer ones, when I like the spring and summer ones better, and more dressy than casual ones when I wear casual more often?

On another side note, I learned the hard way NOT to use old fabric softener. I usually use the dryer sheets but keep liquid fabric softener on hand for those things that can’t go in the dryer, but don’t use it that often. Several of my wintery clothes fit that category, and when I went to pour the fabric softener in the washer, I noticed it was thick and gloppy but figured it would dissolve in water. It didn’t. It left snot-like globs all over the clothes even after several washings. I thought I’d never get rid of that stuff and ending up using most of my new bottle of detergent just rewashing that load. So there is your household tip for the day: if your liquid fabric softener has gotten excessively viscous, get rid of it.

I have a hankering to do some fall baking, but everyone in the family is trying to watch their weight (except Jesse and Mittu, because they don’t need to), so I have been refraining. But I did give in and make Choco-Peanut Butter Dreams last night. So good.

I finished one book that I am not inclined to review for various reasons and another audiobook that I think I will wait to discuss together with its sequels. Usually I am brimming over with blogging ideas and even have a running list where I have jotted some of them down, but for some reason I’ve been going blank when I try to think of what to blog, though I have been keeping up with the Reading Classics Together Challenge on Thursdays and Friday’s Fave Five on Saturdays. Maybe it’s more of a time for getting things done at home than blogging, but often as soon as I think I won’t have time or inspiration to blog, then ideas come flooding. 🙂

I have one more newspaper column, due in a couple of weeks, before this term is done, then I have to wait for a year to reapply for the “community guest columnist” position. I’ve enjoyed it, but I’m also a little glad to be out from under the pressure. It has been good experience to write for a secular audience and with a word limit (blogging was supposed to be good writing practice for me, and it has been, but I do tend to be wordy. Cutting excess and making sentences really count has been a great exercise). Deciding what to do for the last one will be hard, as I have three columns almost ready and some half a dozen other ideas. This has me thinking of maybe pursuing other avenues of publication: magazines, perhaps.

I mentioned in my last Friday’s Fave Five than an extended family member recently had a crisis. I’ve e-mailed a handful of you the specifics. Things are stable for now but still shaky, and I’d appreciate your prayers especially for the spiritual needs involved. Thanks.

More stray thoughts…

  • I love Monday holidays, but the whole rest of the week I keep having to ask myself, “What day is this?”
  • I don’t get the fascination with washed-out photos from Instagram. I suppose there are other ways to edit photos there, but the ones I’ve seen are a washed-out look.
  • I wonder why high schools don’t keep graduation caps and gowns on hand for students to use and return like colleges do. For each student we’ve had to buy them, and then store them in the closet or attic forever after.
  • Am I the only one who wishes books had a rating system like movies? I hate to be “surprised” by what looks like a good book only to find out it has bad words or sensual scenes in it.
  • Even though I no longer have children in elementary or high school, I find my schedule is still affected by schools. I go through three school zones to get to my mother-in-law’s place, and there are certain times of day it can take twice as long to get there due to school traffic. On the other hand, it is nicer to go shopping or to restaurants during the day now that schools are back in session.
  • I’m beginning to think that a great deal of misunderstandings and hurt feelings come not from what other people said or did, but from how we interpreted the words or actions. I think sometimes they’d be surprised at what we thought they meant or why we thought they did what they did.

Stray thoughts about the Olympics

I don’t watch sports much on TV, but there is something about the Olympics that draws me! Here are a few thoughts from this year’s events so far.

  • My favorite part of the opening ceremonies was the Chariots of Fire segment. 🙂 The queen jumping out of the plane was a close second. I thought the giant blow-up villains and giant baby were pretty weird. The forged rings were pretty neat. The opening segment seemed too busy to me — too much going on and too small, then too much time spent dragging the plant stuff off the floor.
  • While the coverage has been on I’ve been using my iPhone, scrolling through Facebook or Google Reader, or one night clipping coupons and cleaning out my coupon file, so I’m doing something but I can stop and pay attention when I want to. I have a couple of stitching projects I want to get started on while watching.
  • It’s been nice to Tivo the evening coverage and start watching it about an hour into it so I can fast-forward through the parts I’m not so interested in.
  • The swimming races begin to look alike after a while. I fast-forwarded through one relay race that didn’t have anyone in it I was interested in, and it was kinda fun to watch it that way. 😀
  • I’m so glad Michael Phelps did make history by winning 19 medals total so far. It’d be nice to have at least one more and make it an even 20. 🙂
  • I don’t like the way reporters and commentators overly laud winners or have an almost scolding tone when athletes make mistakes, like you’re great and wonderful and worthy of adulation when you win and lower than dirt if you lose. I read one headline saying someone had received a “stunning loss” by winning a silver medal. That’s not what I would call a stunning loss even if one was expecting gold!
  • I can’t imagine having to do anything publicly with all those cameras and people. I think it’s perfectly understandable when people “mess up” under that kind of pressure and all the more amazing when they overcome all of that and excel.
  • I feel almost worse for the moms in the stands watching. The ones I’ve seen are visible bundles of nerves while their athlete offspring seem calm and cool at least outwardly.
  • I was watching one male gymnast an almost hoping he would mess up so our guys could advance, and then thought, no, I don’t want to think like that. I want them all to do well — I just want ours to do better. 🙂
  • I’m glad it was cool enough over there that the beach volleyball players had to cover up their bikinis with long sleeved shirts and pants while playing this year.
  • Seriously, what is up with bikinis being uniforms for beach volleyball or women divers’ uniforms having half their bottoms hanging out? That is so not necessary.

I’ve finished a couple of books I want to talk about and have some “deep thoughts” swirling about a topic or two, but will have to wait to get to them as I only have time for a quick post today. I might get to one of the books later today if the tasks for the day go well, but it will more likely be next week before I get to them.

Are you watching the Olympics? What’s your favorite event? Mine is gymnastics, followed by swimming.

The strayest assortment of thoughts….

  • Twice this week I have rinsed my hair in the shower and then couldn’t remember if I had just washed it or was wetting it to wash it. 🙄
  • I know the conventional wisdom in blogging and web design is not to extend the text much below what the reader can see at first, the idea being they’ll just read what’s on top and not scroll down. But am I the only one who would rather scroll down than click through to another page???
  • When I am Googling something and click on a link that turns out to be a slide show, I almost never click on it any further. I’d much rather see a list I can skim through. Rarely do the links for the next slide come through quickly, but even if they did, it’s much more efficient to just look down a list than keep clicking for the next thing
  • Why:

Do arrogant people not recognize the quality in themselves?
Do people stop in doorways to talk?
Do black beans gross me out?
Does the tip of the pizza slice taste the best?

It seems like there was something else I was ruminating about…I guess I’ll have to save that for another time… if I remember it. 🙂

Odds and ends

  • I had a thoroughly lovely Mother’s Day. I’ll probably wait to say more about it on the Friday’s Fave Five post so as not to repeat myself. I’m so thankful for all my family does to honor me on that day.
  • With all the busyness of the last few weeks and the weekend to come, and feeling a little tired and brain dead Saturday and Monday, I indulged myself by watching North and South on Netflix. I was dismayed at first that it was a four-hour series broken up into 1-hour segments: I had thought it was a 2 hour or so movie. But it would’ve left out a lot to condense it down to 2 hours, and the format did help to watch it in pieces. I had listened to the audiobook version of the book earlier this year and really enjoyed it. There were some changes in the film, some very unnecessary (there was no scene in the book with a worker smoking in the mill and Mr. Thornton beating him — they didn’t really need to toss that in to provide more differences of opinion and feeling between him and Margaret. I don’t think Mr. Thornton was described as handsome in the book. Their end meeting wasn’t happenstance at a train station, etc.), but overall I enjoyed it quite a bit. I really liked the actor who played Higgins — he had a kind face and a twinkle in his eyes (except when he was angry over the strike situation).
  • I had also checked out the DVD of Ivanhoe from the library a few weeks ago, which I had wanted to see after listening to it on audiobook. It was condensed to less than two hours, and needed condensation, but of course much was changed in it as well. It was okay. While looking for this old film version (with Elizabeth Taylor as Rebecca), I saw this one with Anthony Andrews. I had caught just a part of this one on TV once, and I loved Andrews as The Scarlet Pimpernel, so I’m going to have to see if Netflix or the library has this one.
  • This is Jesse’s last week of high school. In thinking about all the “lasts” of this year — not only a son graduating, but the last of my kids to do so — one that hadn’t occurred to me was making the last school lunch. That’ll be Thursday. Sniff….
  • I have my yearly physical coming up in a few weeks and had the lab work for it done last week. I got the results last Friday. My thyroid stuff is low, my “good” cholesterol is low, but my triglycerides, overall cholesterol, and”bad” cholesterol are all high as well as my fasting blood sugar, the first time that’s been the case since I had gestational diabetes with my second pregnancy (but something I’ve been fearing since my mom developed Type II diabetes.) None of them are real high, and the sugar is not in diabetic range (116 when it’s supposed to be around 100), but I’m sure I’ll be getting a good talking-to at my next visit and will have to make some changes.
  • I’ve been reading over at Do Not Depart for the last few months since my blog friend Lisa writes there some times and refers to it often. They’ve been sharing Ebenezer stories the last few weeks and are inviting readers to share theirs as well tomorrow. I’ve just been working on a post for that — what a blessing to recall God’s hand at work in my life! I invite you to see what’s it’s all about and consider sharing yours as well.

The real problem with Facebook

From time to time I see articles or blog posts saying there is a downside to Facebook in that it can make us depressed or at least miserable. Why? Because everyone’s life supposedly seems happier than ours.

I don’t know about anyone else’s Facebook experience, but mine is a wide variety, People post funny observations, family news, interesting quotes or links to articles they’ve found valuable. Some use it to vent frustrations. Some post hymns or Scripture or prayer requests: one friend who was in the hospital Easter day said the songs, quotes, and Scriptures everyone shared were a help to her as she missed being in church that day.

But even if it were true that people felt miserable because everyone else on Facebook had more or better “stuff,” more friends, seemed happier, got more comments or “likes,” may I humbly suggest that the problem isn’t Facebook? The problem is in our own hearts.

The Bible tells us to rejoice with those who rejoice. If someone got a new job or house or whatever, good for them!

Same with someone who seems to have more friends. “A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother” (Proverbs 18:24). If you want more friends, take the initiative and be friendly to others. And I don’t say that lightly: I’ve always been shy and introverted and had a hard time initiating friendships. But though it is hard, it is not impossible. Sometimes we have to extend ourselves beyond our comfort zones.

If people only seem to post “happy thoughts,” know that they do have their down times as well as anyone else. Be glad, in fact, that they don’t post every little mundane thing. I had one FB friend who did that and I had to adjust which of her posts I saw because I was being flooded with her plans for the day, itinerary, what she was making for dinner, etc., etc., several times a day.

Whatever gifts, talents, or possessions we have, someone else is always going to have more or better. The Bible does warn us about envy, calling it a mark of carnality. It also warns us about comparing ourselves with each other.

These reactions aren’t new or exclusive to Facebook, of course. Facebook is just a microcosm of how people think and react. One of my closest early married friends used to constantly compare herself unfavorably to others. She thought her home, her clothes, everything, in her eyes, was less nice than other people’s. That’s not really humility. It can be a symptom of discontentment. I don’t know what it was in her case, but I am fairly sure that no one else looked on her that way. She was generally thought of as a sweet, warm, creative person. We were all in a state of “early-married poverty,” as I call it, and none of us had  heaps of nice things. But even if one of us had…that’s between them and the Lord. If He allowed them those things, then they’re stewards of them. And even if other people do actually flaunt what they have, that’s a problem in their hearts and shouldn’t be a problem in ours.

Besides feeling that other people have more or nicer things, sometimes we feel other people accomplish so much more than we do. I had trouble with that with another close early-married friend. We were both married with a child or two. But she worked part-time, was active in various church ministries, sewed for her family and home, her house was not only clean every time I was there but nicely decorated. Meanwhile I felt like I was fighting to keep my ahead above water. Often I asked myself how she did it and why I couldn’t. Once her family had ours over for dinner. I don’t know if she sat still more than five minutes at a time: she was constantly up and down, getting something, doing something with the children, doing a little here or there. I thought, if that’s what it takes to get as much done as she does, not only would I never be in her league, but I didn’t want to be. Honestly, as a guest I would much rather have had her sit down and visit with me: it was not a very restful visit to have the hostess constantly on the move. I’m not condemning her: I just realized we were very different personalities, and that was okay. No one was comparing me to her or thinking I should be like her except me, and I learned to stop it. 🙂 There was much I could learn from her, but I didn’t need to try to be just like her or beat myself up because I wasn’t.

Another time when I learned that a man who had been a younger college classmate a couple of decades ago was about to become a college president, at first all I could think was, “Wow. A college president, and he’s younger than I am. So what have I been doing with my life?” Well, I was raising children, keeping my home, ministering in various ways. Our callings were different from each other, neither necessarily better than the other in themselves.

If we’re doing what God wants us to do, we don’t need to feel inferior to anyone else, and we need to stop being preoccupied with comparing ourselves to others. If someone else accomplishes more because they’re more diligent, better managers of their time and efforts., etc., we can learn from them and be inspired  to make whatever changes we need to, but we don’t need to sit in a corner feeling sorry for ourselves.

If Facebook truly makes someone miserable for these reasons, perhaps it would be best to give it up. But a better approach might be to go to it without comparing ourselves and our status to anyone, seeking to be a blessing to others, grateful for and content with the gifts and life God has given.

Just popping in…

…to say hello. I’ve been pretty scarce the last few days, both here and at your places. I’ve been keeping up with my Google Reader but not commenting as much. Nothing wrong or going on — the first part of the week was super busy, then maybe because of that I just felt like I had brain burn-out yesterday. Usually I have more blog ideas than time to write them out, but I’ve felt pretty blank blog-wise the last few days.

I was thinking that I had a good bit of time for everyday stuff before the next spate of busyness, but then remembered I need to get graduation announcements for Jesse addressed and mailed in a couple of weeks, and I had wanted to make a scrapbook for him for his graduation reception. So I’d probably better get started!

I’ve also been pondering how to best commemorate the time leading up to Easter. I’ve read Jesus, Keep Me Near the Cross: Experiencing the Passion and Power of Easter (linked to my review) compiled by Nancy Guthrie a few years in a row, but just didn’t feel like getting that out again this year. My regular through-the-Bible reading has me in the gospels just now — finished Matthew and Mark and started Luke — so that has helped keep my focus on the life and death of Christ.

I have a meeting in the morning and was thinking of heading out to the mall afterward and thought how incongruous it was to go shopping on Good Friday (though I think Christ was actually probably crucified on Thursday, but be that as it may…). On the other hand, we know the outcome, and we celebrate that with joy on Easter, so I don’t think we need to spend all day Friday (or Thursday) in hiding and sadness. But the cost of our sin was so great, and Christ did so much to redeem us from it, it seems like we should somehow acknowledge that day especially though we acknowledge it throughout the year. I just haven’t worked out quite how to do so.

I’ve often felt the struggle between grief over Christ’s death versus gladness that He gave Himself to that death to redeem me. Chris Anderson‘s chorus in the song “My Jesus Fair” sums it up quite nicely:

O love divine, O matchless grace-
That God should die for men!
With joyful grief I lift my praise,
Abhorring all my sin,
Adoring only Him.

I hope you have a good week blessed with some time to meditate on and thank Him for His sacrifice for us.

Meanderings

I don’t mind Daylight Savings Time too much once I get used to it, but I do hate losing that hour of sleep over the weekend, and it takes me days to get my body clock adjusted. It’s nice that we have spring break this week!

I mentioned that last week Jesse was on his senior trip. I didn’t want to say where until after he got home, but they went to Disneyworld.

In previous years the seniors had gone to places like Israel, England, Scotland, Wales, and Jesse was really looking forward to going out of the country for the first time. But only he and one other girl wanted to go. Three other girls were fine with wherever they went, but the rest were just planning not to go if they went out of the country. Part of me wishes they had gone ahead with just those five, but in an effort to try to find a place most of the seniors did want to go, they ended up with Disneyworld.

Though Jesse was disappointed at first, he got more excited as the trip got closer and was bouncing-off-the-walls excited the night before leaving. He had a great time, said the attractions and especially the food were wonderful, and said not a single negative thing happened on the trip: everyone got along, the flights were ok, etc. None of the rest of us has ever been there, so it was exciting to hear about.

I’ve pondered since then whether a senior trip should be primarily educational or fun (though of course they can be both!) I can understand students not wanting to put the time and money into something they think will be boring, and if they think a trip to another country is just going to be visiting a bunch of museums, I can understand that doesn’t sound thrilling.  But I think it is quite short-sighted not to take the opportunity to go out of the country when you have it. But be that as it may, there wasn’t much we could do about it.

Jesse completely missed seeing Washington D.C. At this school the tenth grade takes a field trip there, and he wasn’t here then; in his previous school that’s where the seniors went on their senior trip. Jim has always wanted to go there, so we’re giving some thought to trying to make it out there this summer as kind of a last hurrah before Jesse goes to college and maybe meeting Jeremy there. We’re not sure about leaving Grandma for that long, though. She’s cared for in her assisted living place, but we do visit her almost every day and kind of keep on top of things they may overlook, especially since she is not as communicative these days.

His week away gave us a little foretaste of what the “empty nest” will be like. I do hate it when I hear a mom lamenting about the empty nest and someone tritely responds that that’s the way it is supposed to be, that we’re to “train ourselves out of a job,” that we wouldn’t want them to stay home forever and not go out and be full-fledged adults. In my less sanctified moments my inward response to that is, “Well, duh.” Of course we want all of that for our children, but it is also very natural to acutely miss having them around when they have been a part of our everyday lives for 18-20 years.

Nevertheless, there are a few perks. 🙂 My husband’s schedule was the same, but mine was unaffected by alarm clocks, school schedules, etc., so there was a great sense of freedom. I had thought, having whole days to myself, I would get so much done, particularly some writing. I’m not quite sure what happened to the week, but it flew by and I hardly got anything done! Of course, there is still grocery shopping, housework, visiting Grandma and such to do during the week, so it’s not like it was a whole week of free time. But I can foresee that I am going to need to set up some structure to my days when that time comes.

Another thing I am going to miss when Jesse leaves home is having a helper around. I rely on him a lot to help me move things, get or take something to the attic, change light bulbs I can’t reach (I have balance problems, so though I can stand on a chair — I can’t let go of it to do anything else while I am up there), etc. Jim works such long hours I hate to overload his Saturdays with things I need done.

In other news….we finally got an offer on our house in SC. But it was way low, and Jim was in the process of sending a counter offer when they changed their minds and said they decided not to buy a house now after all. We’re thinking they may have run into some credit problems to just drop it like that. Jim’s company had been helping us with the payments on that house as part of his relocation package, but that assistance is coming to an end soon. Property values have dropped due to the economy plus the fact that that area tore down the local high school and built a W-Mart in its place. 🙄 So we’re not going to be able to count on making any money on the sale of the house, but we’d really like not to lose any. Jim is giving some thought to renting it out, and that’s an option, but I would really like to just be done with it and not be responsible for it any more.

We’re having company in about a week and a half. Does anyone else do this: I have some housecleaning things that need to be done but if I do them now I’ll have to do them again before we have people over, so I am tempted to just wait on them, but I am not sure I can stand it. Not everyday housework, but the “extra” stuff. Like the burner pans under the stove: they are white on this stove, so they show up every little drip and spatter. They look pretty bad right now, but it seems just as soon as I clean them, the next day or so something boils over or sloshes, necessitating taking things apart and cleaning them again.  But I think I’ll have to just go ahead and take care of them and try not to make too big of a mess with them between now and then. Plus when company is coming all of a sudden I want to get a dozen household projects done, like finally making curtains for the family room.  I know hospitality isn’t all about how your house looks, but still. We’ll see how it goes!

I do have a number of posts in mind, some with much deeper thoughts than I have shared lately. 🙂 Hopefully I’ll be able to work on some of those soon. I have my next newspaper column due this week plus we’re trying to get a ladies’ newsletter going at church. But hopefully I’ll be able to make some time soon to get some of those posts written.

Thanks for listening to my meanderings. 🙂

Laudable Link and Neat Videos

I almost didn’t post today because I didn’t have many links accumulated from the week’s reading — but sometimes short and sweet is nice. 🙂

Forgiveness For Moms Who Fail, which would be…all of us.

This is sooo funny — a dog trying to get a statue to play fetch. Poor doggie!

And this is just amazing: a young man with several disabilities but amazing talent on the piano:

Hope you have a great Saturday! I’m looking forward to getting my boy back today.

Foot update

I mentioned Monday that I had developed cellulitis on one foot and asked for prayer. Thanks so much for praying. It’s finally getting better.

I had bought some new “every-day” shoes and had worn them for a few days to make sure they were okay before throwing the old coming-apart ones away. I was out of the house most of Friday, and I can’t remember whether the little worn spot on my foot was there before that or came up afterward. I applied my trusty Bactine and Neosporin. But Saturday morning I noticed about a 3″ red patch around the sore. I’d had cellultis a couple of times before, so I was concerned, but wasn’t sure if this was cellulitis or just a minor infection. I battled off and on with myself about going to Urgent Care (our doctors offices being closed on the weekends), but it didn’t seem to be getting worse. So I figured it was ok.

Jim and Jesse were away for a function that evening, and I was at my desk with my foot elevated on a little footstool under the desk. Some time during the evening when I pulled away from the desk, I was alarmed to see that the redness had grown in area and intensity and the top of my foot was puffy. “This isn’t good,” I thought. If you’ve ever heard the term “angry red,” that was the redness on my foot. When Jim got home I was still uncertain about going in — we’d have to go to the ER now since urgent care was closed — but it had spread so quickly I was afraid to wait any longer.

I don’t have full feeling in my foot since having transverse myelitis. In fact, for many years I didn’t feel pain or cold at all on my right lower leg — it’s only been in the last couple of years that I’ve begun to feel any discomfort there. That’s nice in many ways, but pain is an indicator that something’s wrong and a help to doctors in making a diagnosis, so lack of pain can be a problem. This felt uncomfortable but didn’t really hurt except for when I first got up after lying down.

But the doctor diagnosed cellultis and prescribed antibiotics. I’m allergic to both penicillin and sulfa, so that complicates things a little, but they did have an antibiotic that would work for me. I was told to rest for a few days, keep my foot elevated, and come back if it got worse or if I developed fever or nausea.

So Sunday I stayed home from church and basically took it very easy, and most of the week I’ve stayed home and kept my foot up as much as possible. Sunday Jason and Mittu came over and made dinner, and Monday I coached Jesse through his first meal. He had said he wanted to learn how to cook, so I figured this was a good time to start. 🙂

I think he did a good job!

Our pastor’s wife offered to bring a meal Tuesday, but she lives 45 minutes away. I just hated for her to make that drive here and back. Plus we have several in church with greater need. So I’ve been handling simple meals and dishes since then, but little else around the house, and I’ve been keeping my foot up throughout the day.

The first day or two it didn’t seem better: in fact, it actually looked worse the second day. Then for a day or two it seemed to look better some times but the same other times. Yesterday was the first day it clearly looked much better and I could tell it wasn’t my imagination. I’m not sure how long I am supposed to keep my foot elevated, but I figure as long as there is more than a little redness, I’d better.

It’s funny that many times we’d love for someone to tell us to rest and stay off our feet, but then when we have to, we want to get up and bustle around. 🙂 I see things I need to do every time I get up and walk around. I’ve taken a little swipe at some things when I’ve been up, but I’m pretty sure by this weekend I’ll be able to get back at it. Maybe even tomorrow.

I’ve enjoyed not having to go anywhere. I could all too easily become a hermit. I sent Jesse to the store for the first time with just a short list of essentials, but I’m hoping to make a trip to the store in the next day or two.

Other than concern over my foot, it’s been a pretty pleasant week. I’ve napped a bit, read a bit, spent a good bit of time at the computer, worked on my Cooking For Two recipe book I mentioned last week. I had set up the notebook and separated out the recipes then, and this week I’ve been gluing them on pages and placing them in page protectors. I’m not getting real decorative or else it would take that much longer, but I did print out major page headings  (“Chicken,” “Beef,” “Cookies,” “Cakes,” etc.) with a bit of clip art while listening to my audiobook (and keeping my foot on the footstool!) But I think my little respite is just about over.

So…that’s probably much more than you ever wanted to know. But thanks so much for your prayers! I sincerely appreciate them.